THE WAIT

I am about to cry,
Dry the tears before they fall
I am about to break down,
Hold them all together before the crack appears
I am about to fall so hard,
Catch me before I am gone
I am about to drown within my thoughts,
Save me from the suffocation
I am about to forget happiness,
Remind me hope might be left
I am about to embrace the sad destiny,
Show that the future is what happens now
But still,
I am about to do all of it...
But where are you??
Not
Across the skies
Below the oceans
Far away from the universe
Yet not near
Unknown and anonymous
I will wait to be proved wrong
I will wait for hope to be restored
Come before the wait consumes the remnants of sanity...
Come before the ultimate wait ends in doom
Come before me before the luck fails me...

A little Some more....

Some things are always left unsaid

Some feelings are hidden left unexpressed

Some stories are never known left unwritten

Some wounds never heal left unopened

Some moments never arrive left waiting

Some memories never fade left untainted

Some thoughts lingers around left unchained

Some people never belong left alone

Some relations never happens left untried

Some souls never soothed left untouched

Some tears clears the soul left flowing

Some smiles go in vain left unnoticed

Some decisions never taken left unto fear

Some wars inside boils left unwaged

Some words when written go unnoticed

Some words may go in ash but glows in heart

Some times let life move on,

Taking its toll as it rolls on,

Unsaid Wishes-Wishes dissolved in air...

I love you Dad,

Being with you were my best moments
Your care is something words could never describe..
Your words are my world
Still I look back in hope of seeing you
Trailing behind my every step
Holding my hand
To catch me when I fall
To Pat If I succeed
Only to realise with tears
My hands holding on to nothing
My heart holding on to memories
My mind trying to register
Its just an illusion
Coming back to reality
Cursing God's cruelty
For taking you away
Hoping I had a way
To wish you...Happy father's day
To the best dad in the world

My dream

My Dream

It was you in my dream,
Who made my eyes gleam
stifle all my heart's scream.
You never knew its only you
Made me shine among the few,
Out of darkness from my demon
Taking my soul to heaven
Only to drop in middle of the sky,
Leaving my life back to be dry...

Why?...

Why?...

No one understands the silence between my words
No one understands the sadness behind my smile
No one understands the unsaid feelings of mine...
They think I am fine but only I know
I am dying daily...
I want to be happy again
I want to live those moments again
I am sick of wearing a fake smile..
I am waiting for the one who can really make me smile..!!

Dad...

Dad... I love you

Even as days pass by,
Every Second moves like an hour, and
Still unable to believe the absence...
I am missing your presence a lot.
I foolishly believe to see you one more time
hear you calling out to me, 
hold your hand and feel its warmth,
I still hope and
I go on believing in things
that will never ever happen...
Only if you had been here,
No one would have left me deserted.
I would not have cared nor get hurt.
You took away everything along with you...
Except me and a lot of pain to learn from,
I learnt and now it is hurting a lot.
Is god this much cruel to take away my only blessing this much sooner??
I wish you watch over me every time!
I wish you could wipe away my tears and make me smile...
I miss you much more that i could imagine dad 

x

I will go on...

Sometime being alone gets difficult,
When there are lot to be shared
But no one to spill it with...
A lot of such thoughts brings tears,
Shed unseen and in sleep..
Only in belief held for years
hoping for some miracle to happen
To bring back the lost moments
To relive the blissful memories
To be at peace at last...one day
The days passing by yearning for that day
A lonely journey with hopes with
A strong desire for affection..
Here I live with hopes raised but 
sometimes distressed..this life as a
mixture of tides confused equally
but going on and on.... I too
Will go on...